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’m sorry you learned the hard way and unexpectedly that your best friend was never a best friend to begin with from the sounds of it. Remember it has nothing to do with you and everything to do with them and their warped views of what friendship is and how they feel about themselves. It sounds like they couldn’t handle the rejection and that you like someone else but reading what you wrote, it seemed like a surprise that they even considered “liking you” that way because you described them as your best friend. If they can’t keep it a friendship then that’s too bad your feelings are your feelings and if you don’t feel more than friends feelings then you were right to let them know you like someone else that is the proper thing to do not lead someone on. But seems like you also saved yourself some heartache out of this because you didn’t react how they wanted you to do imagine if there were something else that they didn’t like how you acted, what you said or that you didn’t do things how they think you should have etc., then this cycle of calling you names and trying to make you feel bad about yourself as if you’re the problem could have kept happening. Hugs and thoughts. It may be hard now but you’ll grow stronger from this experience and you’ll feel better for not keeping company with someone who would say that stuff to you. Hugs. not mine

I have been treated terribly throughout my entire life.

I've had periods where my life is full of a small amount of meaningful friendships, and that's all I ever had. It's all diminished since those times.

Some people have hurt me greatly, by making me feel insignificant because of the social hierarchy, my physical appearance, height, weight, grades, family dynamics, wealth, or maybe just to generally call me names because they're projecting their feelings of sadness.

I have my own mental issues, so I'm not sound to give advice on everything, but one thing I've gotten over is the bullshit, for the most part.

If someone calls me names, and makes fun of me for something that I can't immediately control (height, wealth, in some instances weight even though long-term I can, I'm just depressed and addicted to sugar).

When people harass me in childish ways, I don't even care anymore. My sister calls me fat all the time, and she has this sense like she's the Ben Shapiro of roasting people, and it just doesn't cut it for me, because it's all childish and meaningless, and while I do have the time for that, it won't be what I'll be spending it on.

Tip: cut the BS. Part of getting good at that is finding out what the BS is. If that means whole relationships, so be it. Reality doesn't care about human sentimentality, memories, or feelings, and that includes between people. If someone is being toxic and they won't stop for long periods of time, you have most likely found BS (or to put it specifically, a narcissistic or pathological liar).